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[09 Feb 2011|08:59am]
I wonder if anyone is still alive?

7 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

[07 May 2009|09:58am]
Like violence you have me,
forever, and after.
Like violence you kill me,
forever and after.

Ey up kids
Hows it hanging?

2 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

[24 Jan 2009|07:34pm]
I suppose even after all the feeling good,
It always comes back to that one main fact that I just can't shake.

I'm never EVER going to feel good enough.
Regardless of what it's for.

It's a little sad really.

Oh well.

just thinking of you..

[23 Dec 2008|11:04pm]
Sarah Sneddonnn-Rickett,
If you read this
I still think about you all the time
Is that sad? haha
And I really do miss you!
Even if it seems like I never really make an effort
I do try to..
I keep going to text you and I don't have your number :(
If I make that mistake one more time I think I'm officially stupid.
This sounds like I've turned into a proper lemon haha
But I just know things aren't so great for you,
And it sucks that I'm not there with Mr Waller and a HAM sandwich to help you out
You deserve alot more, you really do

You alive?
You ever read me?
I heard Damien Rice earlier and realised I hadn't sent to a christmas card this year,
How dare I? haha

I don't know whyyy
But get in touch if you read this?
Please :)

As for everyone else
Hey up :)

I'm pretty much sorted again guys,
Okay, I'm still living a shitty life
But it's MY shitty life
And I'm happy :)
Once I get driving actually passed,
How about a few visits in the new year?
I've put things off long enough..
You included Wifey!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you all

3 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

It's Not Alright [12 Oct 2008|02:02pm]
I've got nothing to say

I did have
But it's gone lol

Hello anyway :)

2 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

So what is left for me.. [01 Oct 2008|05:54pm]
I always get irritable around this time of year,
Especially with that repeat performance last month.
What are the chances in that?
Sounds like I'm being cold,
But that's all that's left in me.
Maybe kids just aren't for me.....

:( :(

I don't even know why I'm writing here.
I guess I thought I'd moved on,
New faces, new surroundings
No one knows about the things I don't need to talk about
With Craig gone,
And Darren still on my case
I just don't know what to do anymore

I'm so sick of running
8 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

[24 Jan 2008|06:41pm]
10 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

: you're half the world away : [12 Sep 2007|08:04pm]
I don't know what made me come on here today.
But I saw this..

"Wifey: hiiiiiiiii
Wifey: *ding*
Wifey: SPUNK!..
Wifey: yankee doodleeee
Wifey: BOOOOOM i waaant your loveeee
Wifey: and a lesbian orgy
Wifey: but don't tell anyone..
Wifey: because
Wifey: it's with
Wifey: female..
Wifey: lets go eaaat some pooo.. and go join Niks who's listeniiing to Blueee
Wifey: *joins myself*
Wifey: I'm a scary bear..
Wifey: GRRRR
Wifey: *scratch scratch*
Wifey: woo, no typos yet, go me
Wifey: comfort meee cradle meee..
Wifey: okies, better go.. hah
Wifey: hope you're okies anyways.. remember.. I LUFFS YA
Wifey: t'raaaaaiknowspunkycamelsaregreatbutscaryandiknowwholivesinapinbapleunderthedeaaaeatingpoooo xXx"

..fucking hell, I miss being that crazy.

I proper miss you Sarah.
Maybe we should meet up soon and catch up on the past year =]

I had loads I wanted to say.
But fuck it.
I miss her too much.

just thinking of you..

: forget about yesterday : [30 Oct 2006|09:02pm]
These, made my night..


just thinking of you..

: yuou're half the world away : [02 Aug 2006|09:56pm]
Okay, guess I better start those All Aboutttt Youuuu posts! Hah, lovely bit of shameless McFly plugging there. First come first serve, so starting with.. er..

It's all about GavCollapse )


Stay tuned if you left a comment, you may well be next :)

2 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

: when everything stops making sense : [30 Jul 2006|12:37am]
This'll give me something to do...

1. Reply to this post if you want me to tell you how cool you are!

2. Watch my journal over the next few days for a post just about you and why you rock my socks.

3. Post these instructions in your journal and give your friends a much needed dose of love and adoration!


4 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

: dance with the devil tonight : [28 Jul 2006|12:46am]
I love it when you find song you haven't heard in years..Collapse )

just thinking of you..

: I'm ashamed of my life : [16 Jun 2006|12:59am]
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Yeah, fuck off.

just thinking of you..

: endlessly caving in : [10 Jun 2006|09:36pm]
Stolen from Luke :)

Two Names You Go By:
1. Nik
2. Niks.. fun, I know.

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. Skirt
2. Strappy top.

Two Things You Would Want in a Relationship:
1. Honesty
2. Happiness

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1. Anything to do with the Arts.. music (in various forms), dancing, drawing, painting, etc.
2. Football. World cup, baby.

Two Things You Want Really Badly At The Moment:
1. My confidence back.
2. To be at Download, watching Metallica, who are playing right now.

Two pets you had/have:
1. Dawgys
2. Pixie and Dixie, la mices.

Two people will fill this out:
1. Sarah?
2. Bunni3?

Two things you did last night:
1. Cried a lot.
2. Couldn't sleep, due to the heat and my nasty head.

Two Favorite Places to eat:
1. KFC, purely for the salad, mmm.
2. Flames, dahling.

Two People that live in your house:
1. Craig.
2. Craig's binty girlfriend.

Two things you ate today:
1. Lots of fruit.
2. Special K bar.

Two people you last talked To:
1. Craig.
2. Karl.

Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1. Watching football.
2. Seeing the boyfriend.

Well, that passed 5 minutes :)

I feel a bit, I dunno really tonight. Couple of people I'd love to talk about on here, but don't feel it's right to. Just.. I'm really worried about one of them, she probably knows who she is, and yeah, I'm still always here for her, and I hope shew knows that.. and the other, I just don't know where to start. So won't.

Got a private post I need to do too.

Hope everyones okay anyway :)

Much love xx
7 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

: you want commitment? : [09 Jun 2006|09:47pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

I'm reaaally in one tonight. Bloody heat, screws me up all the time.

Life - pretty average. Coulda been a whole lot better if I was at Download this weekend! Sigh.

Love - fucking fantastic, when my head lets it be. Todays been great, tonight I'm sat with disbelief, doubting everything.

Self - going between stages of hating myself and feeling semi-comfortable with me. Think I'm okay at the moment. Been eating healthy, going to the gym, walking rather than getting a lift/buses. It all helps me gain that bit of faith back.

Friends - what are they? Surely, it's not that bad, really? :\

Concerts - I sat waiting all night for him to play Always. He didn't! Wanker. Good job really, I'd have only rang someone I shouldn't, or used it as an excuse for me realising how much of that love is still there.

Weather - gorgeouuuus :D As long as I've got a fan..

Family - had a text from Mum a few days ago. "I heard you were thinking about moving. It won't sort your screwed up little life out. Wake up, darling. You'll only be doing me a favour if you go." Does NOTHING stay private from that woman?! I only told Lucy, so fuck knows how it got back to her. It's kinda shit on the whole idea of my fresh start, but give it a few weeks, I'll probably be all up for it again.

Darren - ran into him in town, he apologised for everything, blamed the medication he was on. It's no fucking excuse for trying to kill someone. Had the cheek to ask if I ever would reconsider things with him again. I just made an excuse and left, was scared of saying no incase he flipped, was scared of saying I'd think about it to keep him happy, incase he acused me of leading him on. That moves looking better by the minute.

Work - going great at the moment. 6th formers and Year 11's are out on exam leave. Year 10's are off on work experience in a couple of weeks. All means I'm not a very busy lady :) Get in!

World Cup - been looking forward to it all year, come on Germany! Haha. People'll hate me for that..

Music - keeps me sane, loves it.

..think that's it for now.



I can't help but be scared of it all
just thinking of you..

: will you still kiss me the same : [04 Jun 2006|11:37am]
Right, gonna ask you lovlies to do me a favour :)

Go to..


Listen to

"The Diary of Jane"

If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?


Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be

Try to find out what makes you tick
As I lie down
Sore and sick
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

There's a fine line between love and hate
And I don't mind
Just let me say that I like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place
In the diary of Jane

Just seems to sum up everything lol.

Anyway, just wanted opinions on the song pleaseeee :)

Thanks ya

1 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

: sweetness, I hope you choke : [02 Jun 2006|10:23pm]
Anyone seen the latest X-Men and wanna share their thoughts on it?

I thought, good film, but a bit far-fetched in places.

Bit of a stupid ending too, not what I'd have done..

Anyway yeah, discuss away :)

10 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

: terrified of these four walls : [30 May 2006|10:48pm]
I know I've said it a million and one times, but...

...go download Savin' Me by Nickelback!!

(if you haven't got it already)

Or go buy the single.



I'd give you more
But I'm over you
1 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

: to feel your touch : [30 May 2006|08:39pm]
Okaaay, ordered by Mr Evil! Well, Luke.. but you know. :P

(pssst, he's not evil, he's luffly!)

He gave me the letter N...

This is how it works: Comment on this entry and I will give you a letter. Write ten words beginning with that letter in your journal, including an explanation what the word means to you and why, and then pass out letters to those who want to play along.

Well, it's my name. Don't really like it that much, only seem to be called it when I'm being told off (back in the younger days) or when it's a really important conversation (like "Just quit poking me Nicola!"). Okay, more important than that lol. Much prefer Nik. Don't really like the name Nikki at all, even though that's what I first went by to the online lot when I graced the AOL members with my presence waaay back in the 90's. Fo' real.

Absolutely amazing song by Seether. They didn't perform it when I saw them last year though, which sucked a bit. But still, great song.

Extremely evil stuff. I hate smoking. Admittedly, used to do it.. but as a smoker, packing up is the best thing you could ever do. Saves lots of money, AND you smell nicer :)

Best part of the day by far. I love being out on those cool summer nights, after one of them really hot days where you've had a BBQ and a big get together. Love lying looking out the window at night too, staring at the stars. Things are just so calm and pretty. Unless, of course, being typical Britain, there's someone outside with a knife. Crimes are terrible these days. Anyway, back to the topic in question.. yeah, night time. Loves it :) Oooh, especially when it's raining and stormy! Mmmm!

Woah, I miss these guys. Beef Supernoodles are the shit. Chicken ones are lovely too, but the Beef ones own all. Apart from when I dropped them on my leg.. whilst wearing a nightie.. thus burning my leg :( ON HOLIDAY TOO!! Ffs. Only me..

One of those words (or if used with others, phrases) that just makes me laugh uncontrollably. Like Wobbleboard, Masculine Titties, BUM'OLE, Femininity (because I can't say it without going Femininininininity like Nemo), Shebang, etc.

Who doesn't love this little guy with the fliddy fin? *hugs him* Nemo is ACE. And no, he doesn't have ears. But, you can find him on all good sushi whizzy belts, which are not to be mistaken for airport whizzy belts, which are full of HAM-filled suitcases. (Yeah this was just an excuse to type an ode to the Wifey. Sue me.)

Looking at anything that's even the slightest bit like one scares the hell out of me. I don't know, there's just something about things that go with necks. Even scarfs scare me sometimes, stupid eh? Ahh, nooses are just EVIL. And look so scary. Aww, my throat feels tight thinking about them :\

Okay, here's a ranty topic. The News is something that really pissing me off. Forever focusing on bad, or just blatent time filling things. For example, today there was a reasonable slot on the whole knife crime thing (sure, this probably happens every weekend, but yeah, lets make a huge deal out of it because a. it's Bank Holiday weekend, and b. there's the whole get rid of knives thing going on. Same thing happened when there was a rise in gun crimes, coinscidence? I think not.), and then a larger slot devoted to that tennis picture thing! After 30 years, they found the picture that had the face of the woman.. well, the photographer, blah di blah. Even when they do focus on worthwhile stuff, it's ALWAYS the bad, the good light in the situation is just ignored! Oh I don't know, things are just getting stupid these days. I could rant forever about the state of the world today. And I'm one of them that, to an extent, acts upon my rants. Everyone should do their bit *nods* Rant over.

Sung in the context We're off to never never laaaand in true James Hetfield style. I'd have given something more productive, but that line just came on as I was thinking of another N word. So yeah, you haveeee it! :)

..that was harder than I thought lol. Sorry about the lack of meaningfulness, N proved a pretty tough letter!

Yeah, get your requests in :)

*plots letters*

6 wasted their time [x] just thinking of you..

: got to break through : [29 May 2006|09:25pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

I think life just started looking up.



So go on and scream
Scream at me
I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
just thinking of you..

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